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Tuesday, December 28, 2010

~Erti CINTA~

Duhai remaja!
Usah mudah tergoda pada kecantikkan
paras rupa dan ketampanan menarik

Rupa hanya sementara,apabila
segalanya berubah menjadi nyata.



Duhai remaja!
Keasyikan CINTA itu menggoda
kata bersalur mutiara,silaunya
Pujuk rayu bagai angin mendayu
Di depanmu adalah lakonan jiwa belaka
memerangkap rasa di jiwa

Duhai remaja!
Carilah bibit iman bukan tampan
membangun jiwa,mendiri keluarga
Kekuatan hidup tak akan redup
kejarlah keberanian mencapai tujuan. 

♥ Buat Ibu Yang Tercinta ♥

Ibu,meskipun secarik calar terukir di ruang hatimu
meskipun mutiara jernih itu selalu mengalir di pipi gebumu
hanya kerana kenakalan dan kedegilanku
kau masih jua sedaya upaya mengukir segarit senyuman dalam ketabahan
kau tetap bersabar dan ikhlas melayan kerenahku
walaupun dirimu juga punya kesempitan waktu dan masalah dalam kerjayamu.
Ketabahan dan kesabaranmu itu selalu membuat aku tertipu bahawa 
sebenarnya segala bebanan di bahumu itu amat berat walaupun kau sering berkata,
"Tidak mengapa anakku. Hal ini cuma kecil sahaja."
Biarpun itu yang terluah dari bibir manismu,namun aku sendiri tahu
bahawa itu kau lakukan demi menjaga hatiku yang selalu membiarkan hatimu terluka.
Oh,ibu! Aku berasa amat terharu melihatmu berjuang dalam kehidupan demi keluarga kita.
Ibu,ketahuilah diri ini amat menyayangi dirimu.
Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa aku menyayangimu,selalu mengasihimu,
memerlukan dirimu dan terlalu ingin melindungimu sebagaimana kau telah berusaha keras
menjagaku sejak aku masih merah lagi. 
Terima kasih ibu,srikandi dunia dan akhirat.


Erti Sebuah Kehidupan

Kesuraman malam mengajarku
berbicara tentang kehidupan 
nun jauh terbentang luas
sebuah dasar lautan
seumpama sebuah mimpi indah 
menggamit tidur lenaku
menampil satu kenangan
mengimbau satu kenangan
mentari pagi menyingsing
bersinar bak mutiara indah
hari-hari yang mendatang
bagaikan dipukul ombak 
yang terhempas di gigi pantai
begitulah dialog kehidupan
dipenuhi dengan keegoan

Seperti masa usia kecilku
langkah seterusnya bukanlah ke gunung
bahkan bukan jua ke lembah
ku takut dan gentar
manusia kini kian alpa
dek kehidupan duniawi
meskipun kehidupan Ilahi
lebih abadi


Thursday, December 23, 2010

Islam Is Spread By The Sword: Preliminary Thoughts

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

I was contemplating a visit to the British Museum whilst walking back from my friends’ house near Little Venice when a thought regarding the issue of how Islam was spread entered my head. As I am no historian and I have not read enough in the matter (and that I was a Muslim), it was pretty clear that whatever analysis (if it can be called that) or thoughts that I have will be mostly educated guesses, at best. So I was rather reluctant to write anything regarding this issue as I fear that it will probably sound apologetic.
The sands of time

However, when I was thinking about it, it dawned to me that whenever people talk about the issue, the context of the words might not be understood by the various parties that are discussing. It is certainly my experience among my Malaysian friends that they will take offence to such things and will be on the defensive; trying to justify the way that their religion is propagated in this world. This, though natural to most people, usually has the effect of reducing one’s ability to reason independently, as one has a vested interest in proving or disproving a particular thesis. That was what I was thinking, mostly (at 11 pm semi asleep), and I will lay my preliminary thoughts here.
The problem is, in my view, the extent and scope of such things. I think there must be a recognition that:
1. The spread of Islam as a religion and the expansion of the Islamic empire (or Chaliphate)
2. The effect of expansion of an Islamic empire
are different issues that needs to be thought of differently. There is also the problem of scope; what counts as being ’spread by the sword’? Since there are 3 things at hand here, I will try to separate the issues first and then try to pull them back together in a (hopefully) coherent whole. There will be, of course, massive grey areas, but I will not deal with them here, as I do not have the expertise to do so.
The Islamic Caliphate
First, let us see the so-called accusation, word for word. I am not a linguist and will probably need some help with this, so bear with me. ‘Spread’, according to Princeton wordnetweb, among others, has the meaning of ‘distribute or disperse widely’. ‘Sword’ in this sense, I believe has the meaning of force. Hence, the phrase might give the meaning that Islam is distributed or become widespread through the use of force. What counts as force, then? Does it mean violence? Coercion? Military force? Conquest? I think it is fair to say that there are cases in which all the above words are used in some parts of the world to ask people to convert (or revert) to Islam. If that is indeed the case, then what should we count as being ’spread’? It seems to me that the sentence provokes the understanding of an intentional effort from a particular party to ’spread’ the religion by the ’sword’, which, in my view, should be defined. If we cannot agree on what counts as being ‘widespread’ or what counts as being ‘the use of force’ or ‘the sword’, then there will be very little middle ground on which to work with. I, for example, might not think that the battle of Badr or of Uhud as the usage of ‘force’ for the ’spread’ of Islam, but some people might beg to differ. Hence, I do think that if people disagree on what they mean by those words, any meaningful discussion will be very difficult.
This, of course, ties into the second issue that is at hand; that of the spread of Islam and the spread of the Islamic empire. Islam is a religion and therefore it’s spread is most easily measured by the number of believers that it has at one particular time. Hence, if we are to decide whether or not the religion is spread by the sword, the easiest way is to calculate how many people were believers of Islam before the establishment of any Islamic kingdom in that area and the rate at which it was growing. We, of course, have very little (if not none) data on this and hence, it will be very difficult to study it. It is, however, useful to recognise that kings all over the world did convert into Islam and with him most of his subjects. Hence, though it is not conclusive how Islam was spread, this might mean that Islam was not exclusively spread by the sword. That, of course, does not rule out the possibility that it was, to an extent, and that the expansion of the Muslim empire contributed to the spread of Islam.
Swords

That brings me to my third point, the effect of the expansion of the Islamic empire. Being an Islamic empire, one needs to realise that there will be a difference in treatment between Muslims and non Muslims in the empire. The system might be tolerant to the non Muslims, but that does not change the fact that it has different sets of rules for Muslims and non Muslims. That does not mean that the system was wrong at it’s time, as it might seem the most just way of doing things then, but it also does not mean that it was absolutely the correct way to govern by modern standards. If that is indeed the case, then one can argue that there are huge political and sociological reasons for people to convert to Islam, apart from it’s spiritual attraction. The point that I want to make is that we don’t know why people converted to Islam, and to say otherwise is arrogant. I have known people wanting to convert to Islam in order to marry a Muslim, why should the people of old be any different? It might be useful and instructive to study the differences in treatment that the system set up for Muslims and non Muslims, but that will be the extent of the study. One can deduce things, but it will never be conclusive. One should not rule out the fact that perhaps, people converted because they could get some benefits from their conversion - it is suggested that the early Christians in Britain worshipped their pagan gods along side their Christian god - and to disregard that as being irrelevant is a mistake in my view.
Hence, coming back full circle, I do think that though Islam might not have been exclusively spread by the sword, to say that the sword was never used in the spread of Islam is a mistake. What is more, the superstructure known as the Islamic state or Chaliphate and it’s expansion might have contributed significantly to the spreading of Islam, though to what extent we can never know for sure. The discussion, then, would revolve around what is the scope of the ’spreading by force’, which will depend on a lot of other factors.
In the end, I am merely stating the obvious.
Wallahua’lam

renungan: TAHU, MAHU dan JIHAD



Manusia ditaklifkan dengan untuk tiga perkara. Menjadi a’bid iaitu hamba, daei’ iaitu pendakwah dan menjadi khalifah iaitu penjaga alam ini.
Hampir semua orang tahu perkara ini. Sebahagian dari mereka mahu untuk menjalankan tugas-tugas tersebut. Tetapi hanya segelintir sahaja yang bermujahadah (jihad) untuk melakukannya.
Kita tahu dosa itu tidak bagus. Kita mahu untuk menghindari dosa. Tetapi sejauh manakah kita bermujahadah untuk menghindari dari dosa? Sengaja persoalan tersebut ditinggalkan untuk difikirkan.
Banyak manusia tahu qiamullail itu baik. Ramai juga mahu melakukannya. Tapi mengapakah kita susah sangat untuk bangun qiamullail.
Kita tahu solat jemaah itu dapat 27 kali ganda. Kita juga mahu mengutip sebanyak pahala untuk bekalan kita di hari akhirat. Tetapi, mujahadah untuk ke masjid? Sangat-sangatlah kurang.
Kita tahu dakwah itu wajib atas umat Islam. Kita mahu untuk berdakwah. Tetapi mengapakah kita susah sangat untuk bermujahadah untuk berdakwah?
Wahai sahabatku, tahu tanpa amal, bagaikan pokok yang tiada buah. Amal tanpa jihad sia-sia. Pentingnya jihad bukan di medan perang sahaja, tetapi di medan nafsu dirimu juga.
Kekuatan umat Islam bukan hanya terletak pada ketinggian ilmu, keazaman yang tinggi, tetapi semangat mujahadah yang tinggi juga.
Tapi mengapalah jihad menjadi perkataan yang sensitif??


Dari Hati Ke Hati

♥FUNNY♥

♥ ermm..Funny ke?? haha.. entahla. tu apa yg org cakap la an. ape yg shiman tau shiman tak pandai sangat wat lawak2 nie.. huhu.. tapi shiman tak leh tengok kalau CIKOWN gelak,mesti shiman pun nak tergelak gak..
hahaha.. kalau salah seorang boleh berhenti gelak takpe gak,ini dua2 kalau dah bergandingan semua orang start gelak gak.. tp best gak ade sahabat yg boleh happy kan kita. erm.. 
♥ kadang2 tu shiman wat keje gila gak sampai wat orang tergelak.. hahaha.. apa keje gila tu rahsia la. hihi..

♥BAIK♥

♥kalau nak cite baik jahat ni,mestila takde siapa nak ngaku yg dia tu jahat an.... so if you to know me baik ke jahat ke,kena lah usaha untuk kenali shiman lebih rapat. tp kalau org wat baik kat kita,kita mestila balas dengan kebaikan,betul tak?? tp kalau kita wat baik dibalas jahat pula,bagi shiman ni sangat parah.. nak balas ke taknak.. pikir beribu kali.. nak sabar or what! paling tak suka benda merepek camni. 

♥KAKI NANGIS♥

♥yoow..shiman BUKAN CENGENG ok.. haha. tp tak tau la. asal la air mata ni mudah sangat mengalir. penat,sakit,sakit hati,terharu & lain2 mesti air mata ni turun macam hujan. adoi.. benda yg tak dapat nak di elakkan.. tp doktor dah pesan jangan nangis,sebab nanti tak pasal2 tido hospital lagi.. haha.. 

♥GARANG♥

♥wOow. shiman memang garang tp dengan adik2 shiman la. huhu.. biasa la kakak mesti la kena tegas dengan  adik2 supaya dorang tak pijak kepala kita ni. tp sejarah paling dasyat la,bila gaduh dengan adik shiman yg bawah shiman ni HIDAYAH.. huuu.. budak ni la yg kiamatkan hidup shiman.adoi. budak paling tak makan saman kat rumah ni.. aik.jap2..saman mana boleh makan nanti tak ada bukti nak bayar saman, patut la dia tak makan saman... hahahahaha..

♥MANJA OR NGADA2♥

♥manja tu kadang2 la,tak selalu sebab dah besar la katakan,mestila ibu & ayah lebihkan adik2.. tp takpe shiman tak kisah. ngada2 pun kadang2..tengok org la yg nak di ngada2 kan pun..hahaha.. kang tak pasal2 makan penampar! haha. 

♥PEMARAH♥

♥actually,shiman tak suke marah2 ni so jangan la wat shiman marah eyh.. kadang2 tu memang la shiman bagi muka tp jangan la lebih2 lak. kang tak pasal2 pipi tu kena jilat penyepak! manusia semua sama. tahap kesabaran memang terhad so jangan nilai seseorg tu dari muka atau sifat luarannya ok. 

♥CAKAP DIRECT♥

♥memang HONEST.. tak suka nak simpan2 apa yg tersirat di hati kerana terlalu menjaga hati org. tp ingat nak sound pun biar la logik and ada kena mengena.. jangan main tembak pulak. apa yg baik kita cube selesaikan. kalau dia wat benda yg tak betul,tegur jea.. seseorg itu akan jadi lebih baik dari semalamnya apabila mendengar teguran org. tp maybe lepas ni shiman diam je kot. malas nak tegur org yg tak sedar2 yg diri dia tu HAMBA ALLAH.. 

♥KASIH SAYANG♥

♥erm..cakap pasal kasih sayang ni macam2 kasih sayang yg wujud disini. dengan Allah ofcourse la kan..kita sebagai hambaNya. dengan family  mesti sebab mereka orang yg pertama wujud bila shiman buka mata melihat dunia ni,then kawan2 yg sentiasa support shiman dalam apa jua masalah. then teacher,then adik,kakak, and abang angkat and lastly barulah boyfriend..
kawan2ku yg tersayang
family yg dicintai
ermm.. shiman sayang sangat2 kat dorang.. hope HIDUP DAN MATIKU BERSAMAMU SELALU... 

♥JUJUR♥

♥always be honest.. because that make my life perfect. kalau kita jujur and selalu jujur ianya dapat mengelakkan kita daripada berbohong pada seseorang but i can't tell you about anyone secret.. hahaha.. kalau nak suruh shiman bagitau rahsia org tu agak2 la ye.. takkan la rahsia org lain pun korang nak tau dari shiman gak.. adoi..

♥SECRET♥

♥kalau rahsia orang tu shiman mesti kena jaga baik2 dalam kocek rahsia shiman... huhu.. kalau shiman lak, banyak jugak rahsia tp shiman selalu share dengan AIMI .. sebab bagi shiman dia pendengar and penasihat terbaik shiman..hehehe..sory mi.. shiman boleh share apa2 jea dengan orang yg tahu apa makna PERCAYA! :)

♥HAPPINESS♥


♥i'm always happy but kadang2 orang yg wat shiman sedih or marah or sakit hati.. :'( 

♥MOOD♥

♥cakap pasal mood ni..ermm..biasa la perempuan kan. mood sentiasa berubah ubah. tp kalau shiman ni suka wat sesuatu ikut mood sebab mood shiman ni doktor cakap sangat2 stabil..hahahahaha..

♥BUSYBODY♥

♥no..thats not me.. tp entahla. kalau apa2 berkaitan dengan diri sendiri mestila nak tahu kan.. kalau shiman nak tahu sesuatu benda tu shiman akan usaha sedaya upaya sampai la dapat jawapan yg betul2 SAHIH! 

♥PINKY♥

♥hahahahahahaha..kawan2 selalu cakap yg shiman ni pinky sebab bila kat asrama banyak barang2 shiman warna pink. bila pergi sekolah pulak memang kena la dengan dorang ni.. budak beg pink la,pensil box pink la, ni pink la tu pink la..macam2.. hahaha.. sebenarnya warna pink semua yg shiman ada tu ibu yg belikan.. by the way.. warna pink tu warna yg lembut and cantik. ♥

♥LAIN2♥

♥kalau nak tau pasal shiman lebih lanjut kenali siap diri shiman yg sebenar ok.. Love you all♥